THE PAIN INSIDE


WAKING UP
MIND FILLED WITH FAILURE

SHUTTING DOWN
BUT PEELING AWAY THE PATTERN

SCREAMING LOUD
WILL GOD SET ME FREE

REACHING OUT
WITH STRENGTH THAT HAS LONG LEFT ME

ALONE AGAIN
LIES THAT HAUNT MY MIND

LEAVE ME BE
WILL I EVER BE FREE

FIGHTING AGAIN
WILL I EVER WIN

DISAPPOINTMENT
WHY AM I NOT AS STRONG AS THEY THINK I AM

LEAVE ME BE
THE LIES THAT ARE INGRAINED WITHIN

LET ME SUCCEED
SO THAT I WILL BE ABLE TO LIVE

BEAUTY INSIDE
I WANT TO SEE IT

SCREAMING FOR NEW LIFE
I WANT TO FEEL IT

TWO MORE MONTHS
CHANGE ME THROUGH IT

TAKE AWAY
THE PRESSURES I PLACE

LET ME SEE
A NEW AND EXCITING FACE

WHERE DID I GO
THIS IS NOT WHO I AM
I WANT TO BE FREE
TO FIGHT UNTIL I AM!

I KNOW THE TRUTH
HELP ME TO SHINE THROUGH IT

I KNOW MY GOD
WITH WHOSE STRENGTH I CAN SEAL IT!

~Jessica 
Written for a friend in treatment for eating disorders

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